This is also another flashback post, but one that I didn’t want to leave out!
My past is my past and I’m willing to leave it there. But, I never once thought my future would be having a little boy. When I first found out I was pregnant, I was convinced I was having a little girl. In fact, I was so convinced that my gender reveal party was decorated in hot pink and black. Given that my whole life had been consumed with a love of pink, there was no doubt I would be given a baby girl. WRONG!
Perhaps it was God’s way of saying that being a boymom would make me a better girl/lady/woman. Now, that little boy is two years old and I couldn’t be more in love with the idea of being a boymom. Yes, boys are loud, crazy, smelly, gross and a little stupid. But, it forced me to dig deep and realize that I had to raise him to be the gentleman I would want in my life. Not only that, but in order for me to raise such a gentleman I would have to be even more of a lady than I already was. It’s up to his Daddy to teach him how to be a boy, not me.
While I was pregnant, we decided that it would be a grand idea to get a puppy. Bella, is my 10 year old chihuahua and has been with me through thick and thin. She has and always will be my favorite child. But, we were worried how she would accept having a baby in the house so we got her a friend. Gillie is what we named her and it couldn’t be more fitting. We rescued this sweet little girl when she was only a few months old and she was just a tiny snuggle bug. Well, it turns out that she’s crazy. She’s a chihuahua-dachsund mix but we still haven’t been able to figure out if she acts more chihuahua or more dauchsund. I think she just got the most stubborn parts of both breeds. She’s still a sweetheart and even though she bites us when we try to kiss her, it doesnt really hurt.
I never thought my life would look like this, but God had a different plan for me. It’s amazing how little control we have of where our life goes even when we think we’ve got it all figured out. Life is just kinda funny that way!
Life looks a little different now, but I wouldn’t change it even if I had the chance.